Where have I been? Oh lord .. who knows really? A little here, a little there, little up, little down.
I really wanted to keep up with this blog. I wanted it to be something. When I do write people tend to enjoy it. I think that I wanted to be in a place where I could provide content before opening this thing up again. To be honest, I don’t know if I am completely ready and I think that is just fine. I often think about what I would tell someone else in my shoes (after all, we are kinder to others aren’t we?) and I think I would tell them to go for it. So here I am, going for it.
A lot has happened since my last post that I will get into in some other posts in the future. Let’s give you some CliffNotes version (do people us CliffNotes anymore? I remember my brother’s friend Cliff dressing up as CliffNotes for halloween one year but that’s the extent of my understanding). Actually, lets make a list. I like lists:
1. I graduated with my Associates Degree and gave the commencement speech at said graduation
2. Had a falling out
3. Tim and I moved to Beverly from Salem
4. Some Phish shows sprinkled in there
5. I went in patient again
6. Smoothed over said falling out
7. We moved back to Salem
8. My therapist had to take a break for a bit
9. I kind of changed my name
10. We’re preparing for a Vegas trip
Wait a hot ass minute .. what was number 5?! One of my closest friends calls this “burying the lead” meaning that I kind of hide important topics in the mundane of a conversation. I’m good at that. I would like to think of it as adding a little spice. I like to think of it as a lil surprise.
I did have to go back into the hospital for some additional help for 16 days. I promise that I will get to that in another post. With my track record on here it will probably be in 2 years but I’ll get there. Just know that I am mostly okay and am better than I once was. It was the best decision that I could have made for myself, my family and the world as a whole.
Number 9 seems wild too. I changed my name?! Not officially, but I’m trying it on for size and really liking it. New name is .. drumroll .. Seroquel (you are what you eat). Kidding, of course. I chose “A”. It’s simple, hard to misspell and easy to remember. I like to think of it as a strong name and it’s something that feels right to me as I continue to evolve. Will it change? Maybe. But for now, I’m A and it is so nice to meet you.
I think I will end there for now. This was more of a check in / relaunch. I did forget how much I like writing and this was relaxing and cathartic. What comes next? More writing I hope. More evolving and exploring. More time with friends and family. More loving on the sweet horse I lease. More slowing down and more checking in.
For those still sticking it out with me, thank you. You truly are lovely.
Love and light,
A
A Bowl of Oatmeal 